warm and fuzzy feeling
I like the quote that the God in Evan almighty said at the end:
" When you ask God for a happy and loving family, does he give zaps you with a warm or fuzzy feeling or the opportunity to be a loving family"
I'm sure that quote had been used by someone else before but i just like it because it's so true. It's so obviously true but we often forget about it. It's so specially true to me. A person who foolishly listen to her feelings all the time.
I don't know why but lately i've somehow been going back to who i was before. I feel like i've gotten more selfish and stupider by the day. I know that i have been listening to my feelings everytime i am being selfish. When dealing with people, when dealing with everything in life i know that i had been listening to this annoying voice in my head!! i hate it! i hate this voices in my head telling me to give up, hate everyone, just be selfish, don't need anyone, i'm perfect everyone is trash.
You know maybe it's just me but these voices are not nice at all.. Are the voices in your head (not heart) like that too? do you often get very cynical of other people? do you often have voices that tells you to be selfish? do you have voices that tells you that you're not good enough so why bother trying? do you get voices that tells you that life is meaningless and useless so just waste it?
WEll i do! and lately it's been getting more violent and annoying.
But these voices tells me about one thing about God and my relationship with Him. It reassures me that God loves me unconditionally. It reassures me that He is there helping me all the time and holding my hand when i'm about to fall. How do i know?
I know because the Bible tells me so. The Bible is so detailed in pointing out satan's characteristics and God's characteristics. The Bible is so detailed in describing humans weaknesses and flaws. The Bible is so detailed in explaining the invincible battle that's going on around us, in us, above us, below us, beside us. The Bible is the word of the creator. The creator who holds everything and knows everything.
I know that these voices are so hard to be dealt with. I know that i'm never strong enough to fight off these voices. I know that i often fall and believe these voices in my head. These voices are like hammer banging in my head 24/7 asking me to hate everyone, be selfish, don't love God, don't trust anyone, give up. These voices do make me tired and angry. These voices do make me think that i am weak and useless. I do have to fight these voices, and honestly, my ministries had suffered from it. Not just me but the people that i minister also suffer from the consequences of it. When i'm battling these voices in my head, i know that i'm not being useful to anyone.
But i want to hold on to faith. I want to hold on to the belief that God is there. He will not judge me or blame me for having these voices in my head. I know that He is tapping my shoulder giving me encouragement at this very moment to not give up, to not liseten to that lying voice in my head. Eventhough it's hard but i don't want to give up.
This is the battle that i'm on.. the battle between choosing God or satan in me... not outside of me but in me... if i can't win this battle, how can i help anyone else to win the battle? But i do want to go through this battle with other people as well. I want to let people know that this is the battle that All Christians are facing at the moment. I want to let them know that we have a God who is able. I want to let people know that we are not in this alone. There are brothers and sisters that are going through the same thing and is struggling as well. I want o let them know that when they feel like giving up, the can turn to God and our brothers and sisters will be there also to encourage one another in this battle.
So don't ever give up.
True that you may fall, one time or another time.
True that you may be weak
True that you may hate persevering
True that you may not feel like doing it
True that it may be hard
True that maybe sometimes you have to do this alone
True that everything may be gloom this very moment
True that it may seems like no one cares
True that many times you see others failing without noticing
True that many times things are not as beautiful and perfect as it should
True that everything we do may seem useless
True that no one appreciates our battle
True that there are people who seems to be enjoying themselves by being selfish
True that giving up may seems like the best choice for most of the time
True that it may seems stupid for us to fight
True that doing things for God is never easy, we are constantly battling, we are constantly tempted, we constantly fall
But it's also true that God is a mighty, powerful, all knowing God. He is the creator of all. We can trust Him eventhough everything else may tell us otherwise, but we can trust Him regardless of what others says. Other people can only tells us things that makes us feel down. These voices may only give us solution for this very moment. But what about the long run? Whom can we trust and give our whole entire life to?
in my 21 years of life, only 1 being is faithful enough to be with me 24/7. That is God and His word. The only thing i can trust.
" When you ask God for a happy and loving family, does he give zaps you with a warm or fuzzy feeling or the opportunity to be a loving family"
I'm sure that quote had been used by someone else before but i just like it because it's so true. It's so obviously true but we often forget about it. It's so specially true to me. A person who foolishly listen to her feelings all the time.
I don't know why but lately i've somehow been going back to who i was before. I feel like i've gotten more selfish and stupider by the day. I know that i have been listening to my feelings everytime i am being selfish. When dealing with people, when dealing with everything in life i know that i had been listening to this annoying voice in my head!! i hate it! i hate this voices in my head telling me to give up, hate everyone, just be selfish, don't need anyone, i'm perfect everyone is trash.
You know maybe it's just me but these voices are not nice at all.. Are the voices in your head (not heart) like that too? do you often get very cynical of other people? do you often have voices that tells you to be selfish? do you have voices that tells you that you're not good enough so why bother trying? do you get voices that tells you that life is meaningless and useless so just waste it?
WEll i do! and lately it's been getting more violent and annoying.
But these voices tells me about one thing about God and my relationship with Him. It reassures me that God loves me unconditionally. It reassures me that He is there helping me all the time and holding my hand when i'm about to fall. How do i know?
I know because the Bible tells me so. The Bible is so detailed in pointing out satan's characteristics and God's characteristics. The Bible is so detailed in describing humans weaknesses and flaws. The Bible is so detailed in explaining the invincible battle that's going on around us, in us, above us, below us, beside us. The Bible is the word of the creator. The creator who holds everything and knows everything.
I know that these voices are so hard to be dealt with. I know that i'm never strong enough to fight off these voices. I know that i often fall and believe these voices in my head. These voices are like hammer banging in my head 24/7 asking me to hate everyone, be selfish, don't love God, don't trust anyone, give up. These voices do make me tired and angry. These voices do make me think that i am weak and useless. I do have to fight these voices, and honestly, my ministries had suffered from it. Not just me but the people that i minister also suffer from the consequences of it. When i'm battling these voices in my head, i know that i'm not being useful to anyone.
But i want to hold on to faith. I want to hold on to the belief that God is there. He will not judge me or blame me for having these voices in my head. I know that He is tapping my shoulder giving me encouragement at this very moment to not give up, to not liseten to that lying voice in my head. Eventhough it's hard but i don't want to give up.
This is the battle that i'm on.. the battle between choosing God or satan in me... not outside of me but in me... if i can't win this battle, how can i help anyone else to win the battle? But i do want to go through this battle with other people as well. I want to let people know that this is the battle that All Christians are facing at the moment. I want to let them know that we have a God who is able. I want to let people know that we are not in this alone. There are brothers and sisters that are going through the same thing and is struggling as well. I want o let them know that when they feel like giving up, the can turn to God and our brothers and sisters will be there also to encourage one another in this battle.
So don't ever give up.
True that you may fall, one time or another time.
True that you may be weak
True that you may hate persevering
True that you may not feel like doing it
True that it may be hard
True that maybe sometimes you have to do this alone
True that everything may be gloom this very moment
True that it may seems like no one cares
True that many times you see others failing without noticing
True that many times things are not as beautiful and perfect as it should
True that everything we do may seem useless
True that no one appreciates our battle
True that there are people who seems to be enjoying themselves by being selfish
True that giving up may seems like the best choice for most of the time
True that it may seems stupid for us to fight
True that doing things for God is never easy, we are constantly battling, we are constantly tempted, we constantly fall
But it's also true that God is a mighty, powerful, all knowing God. He is the creator of all. We can trust Him eventhough everything else may tell us otherwise, but we can trust Him regardless of what others says. Other people can only tells us things that makes us feel down. These voices may only give us solution for this very moment. But what about the long run? Whom can we trust and give our whole entire life to?
in my 21 years of life, only 1 being is faithful enough to be with me 24/7. That is God and His word. The only thing i can trust.
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