thankful..
I am thankful for many things ... for these last few days... for the many many many interesting lessons that i've learned about everything. Just a few points about the things that i've been struggling these last few days:
1. pemuda- really2 disappointed with the group (during the last few weeks) for a few reason, but mainly because I've been prideful..
2. school - maybe i've never shared this with anyone before - but sometimes school is a disappointment to me too... because eventhough they're a "theological" college, and everyday they learn about God and how good He is, it feels like they haven't learn about the practical knowledge about God. Or even if they have, they just store it as another information not as something that THEY should apply in their lives.
3. myself - i've been struggling a lot lately about myself... i've just discovered- wait no- God showed me the sins that i've been hiding, and it hurts my pride.
Few things that God taught me through these experiences:
1. BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE
2. God made it so clear to me of who i am - worthless dust, nothing - without God, i'm just a worthless dust. What i should be pursuing in my life is NOT to please human beings, but GOD. What i should be doing is to love God and keep on pursuing Him.
3. I don't go to college to get good marks, to get good friends, to get good knowledge. I come to Bible college to get to know more about God and grow more in love with Him. What good is knowledge if my heart does not reflect the things that i know. what good is knowledge if what i do is the total opposite of what i know. Bible colleges exist to train us to be lovers of God NOT ministers, evangelist, or deaconess.
4. When i pray and admit to God that i am sinful - that i am weak - that i can't change with my own strength - that i need Him to discipline me - that i am nothing - God is there to listen and help me all the way. He is not a strict and angry God who punishes people for their wrongs. He is always there waiting to forgive us. (but for those who are not willing to listen God will show them that He is just - to everyone)
5. when i share my feelings with people (the right people) i was able to consolidate my feelings a bit more and i am so thankful for the fellowship that i have
6. my ministry is never mine.. it's God's and He will use it in whatever means He wants. Even if it meant conflicts
1. pemuda- really2 disappointed with the group (during the last few weeks) for a few reason, but mainly because I've been prideful..
2. school - maybe i've never shared this with anyone before - but sometimes school is a disappointment to me too... because eventhough they're a "theological" college, and everyday they learn about God and how good He is, it feels like they haven't learn about the practical knowledge about God. Or even if they have, they just store it as another information not as something that THEY should apply in their lives.
3. myself - i've been struggling a lot lately about myself... i've just discovered- wait no- God showed me the sins that i've been hiding, and it hurts my pride.
Few things that God taught me through these experiences:
1. BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE
2. God made it so clear to me of who i am - worthless dust, nothing - without God, i'm just a worthless dust. What i should be pursuing in my life is NOT to please human beings, but GOD. What i should be doing is to love God and keep on pursuing Him.
3. I don't go to college to get good marks, to get good friends, to get good knowledge. I come to Bible college to get to know more about God and grow more in love with Him. What good is knowledge if my heart does not reflect the things that i know. what good is knowledge if what i do is the total opposite of what i know. Bible colleges exist to train us to be lovers of God NOT ministers, evangelist, or deaconess.
4. When i pray and admit to God that i am sinful - that i am weak - that i can't change with my own strength - that i need Him to discipline me - that i am nothing - God is there to listen and help me all the way. He is not a strict and angry God who punishes people for their wrongs. He is always there waiting to forgive us. (but for those who are not willing to listen God will show them that He is just - to everyone)
5. when i share my feelings with people (the right people) i was able to consolidate my feelings a bit more and i am so thankful for the fellowship that i have
6. my ministry is never mine.. it's God's and He will use it in whatever means He wants. Even if it meant conflicts
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