need to stoppp
maan.. i just realised (once again) that reading 9 books of manga at once is BAD for my brain.. i haven't felt this much regret since the time i watched 50 series anime (gundam) 3 days straight non-stop... basicALLY all i did was sleep 7 hours -anime (n eating while watching) -sleep -anime(n occassional snacking) -sleep -anime (and occasional snacking) until the series end........ and what do i feel when i sleep n live the day after that.... I FELT LIKE *#*#*#*#*#**#**# that i can't even describe it in wordsss!!
in my sleep i think about the anime/manga i watched and anything that i do i think about the manga/anime that i've just seen and i felt like i was one of the character or at least one of those other random people who lived in their world... and what i felt is the same as what ALL the characters felt towards each other... the diffeerence is that i'm just 1 person n in the manga/anime, there's like 10 different characterss!!!
seriously, it's a good thing that i can ask God to make me forget about what i just watched / read... but it usually takes about 2 days to get over it all and to actually feel like im living in the real world again ahahhahhaha....
now i know why there's so many people in japan who rarely goes outside their own room.. let alone want to see another human being....
allalallalalla i'm pretty sure there's a significant reason why God allowed me to watch so many animes and mangas at once.. and even if there isn't i already learned my lesson... which is NOT to ... try to forget my own problems and responsibility by watching another doing their lot of problems and responsibilities...
i guess that's why tvs are so popular ... because they can forget about their own problems and responsbilities ... it's like their mental hospital... a place where they can run away from reality from their problems from their fear... a place where they can think that they have control over their emotions and self and life... a place full of lies that allows people to be lazy, unparticipating and unloving towards each other and a place where everything that is not pleasing to God is allowed and encouraged to do...
so yeah.. that's the lesson i've learned after soooooooooooooooooo many yearss brainwashing my own brain with these kinds of entertainment
in my sleep i think about the anime/manga i watched and anything that i do i think about the manga/anime that i've just seen and i felt like i was one of the character or at least one of those other random people who lived in their world... and what i felt is the same as what ALL the characters felt towards each other... the diffeerence is that i'm just 1 person n in the manga/anime, there's like 10 different characterss!!!
seriously, it's a good thing that i can ask God to make me forget about what i just watched / read... but it usually takes about 2 days to get over it all and to actually feel like im living in the real world again ahahhahhaha....
now i know why there's so many people in japan who rarely goes outside their own room.. let alone want to see another human being....
allalallalalla i'm pretty sure there's a significant reason why God allowed me to watch so many animes and mangas at once.. and even if there isn't i already learned my lesson... which is NOT to ... try to forget my own problems and responsibility by watching another doing their lot of problems and responsibilities...
i guess that's why tvs are so popular ... because they can forget about their own problems and responsbilities ... it's like their mental hospital... a place where they can run away from reality from their problems from their fear... a place where they can think that they have control over their emotions and self and life... a place full of lies that allows people to be lazy, unparticipating and unloving towards each other and a place where everything that is not pleasing to God is allowed and encouraged to do...
so yeah.. that's the lesson i've learned after soooooooooooooooooo many yearss brainwashing my own brain with these kinds of entertainment
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