Day's lesson

Today's lesson is:

Don't be too emotional

This is my main weakness, and if you're someone who know me / have interacted with me before - you will know very well what this means.

The thing with my emotionality (if there's such a word) is that... most of my emotions contains my frustration, and you can hear it from the tone and the words that i use. I am not particularly angry but simply confused and frustrated at the things that i see as not right..

Even ffrom the statement that i made above i can already see so many things wrong about it:

1. i should not be frustrated in the first place - if God is frustrated all the time - imagine what the world will be like now??!?!? I should trust God and develop a gentle and quiet spirit (meaning a spirit that fully trust in God)

2. i should not impose my ideals on others - basically, the reason why i'm so frustrated is because i see ppl not doing things that are "ideal" to my eyes.

Something that i need to work with within these few months/ASAP - to learn what it means to be loving, gentle and quiet in spirit, and trusting in God's sovereignty. because as i remember someone once reminded me of a verse in the Bible - that whatever it is that i say is from the heart. If my heart is not right - everything that i do on the outside will reflect what is in my heart. That's simply it - and God is the God of the heart too - He sees it clearly and He knows it better than we do.

So.. whenever i am about to say anything - REMEMBER~!! i need to pray that God will rule over my motivation and my heart, and that He would expose the sin in my heart .. AMEN