count my blessings #1

I've never thought about it but now i truly2 want to thank Om Joe and om Joni, who had guided me to pick the best out of all the excellent choices out there (and i'm sure they will help me still).

I have just realized how much of a stuck-up brat i am, and how i had been taking great advantage of the hard work that those two ministers had done to me (well i think it's not just the ministers, there are a lot of other people... but for now...). I hadn't realise the hard work and thought they had put into helping me in my ministry now and that is to come.

Now that i think about it, there are so many people out there taking care of me without me realising it. I guess it's one of those bad habits that i have, which is too often i see things only on the surface and forgot to go deeper. I can only think deeply if i'm in a relaxed "state", which is rarely the case.

Just like the title, i want to devote this post to God and those people whom God had given me as a blessing in disguise (because i often don't notice it)

I can't write the names one by one and their deeds one by one, because there's soooooooo many of them, i don't think one post is enough. But one thing that always amazes me is how great, loving and kind God is. Everyday, He showed me new things, His love for me never ceases, and He renew me everyday, it's unbelievable. And just when I began to think that He's not there, He sent me these "blessings in disguise" (whom i often take advantage of) just to say how much He loves me still and will always do.

It's funny that not long ago, my non-believing friend, tried to "convert" me to become an atheist, and she said to me that if ever i have trouble or problems in my Bible college or my ministry, I should come and talk to her. But the weird thing is, when she said that, I hadn't the slightest doubt about God's providence. I was reassured that God will be there and helping me when i needed one, and problems and troubles are just there to make me stronger. How can i be sure of it?

After all i've seen and experienced and received from God, I don't think that my whole 21 years of life was ever wasted because of my belief in God. Every pain, tears, joy, love, stress, depression, happiness, kindness, EVERYTHING that i ever received and experiences, they taught me and reassures me more that God is real, and that He's there, loving me every single second of my life. If ever there are unfairness, it's only in my part, I think God is always at a disadvantage for loving me, because i don't think i can ever love Him as much as He love me.

So yeah, that's one of the greatest blessings that i ever received, which is the knowledge of God

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