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Have you ever felt blurred?

What do i mean by that... i mean - you don't even know what you're feeling - but that feeling is dragging you down, preventing you to do stuff..

I have LOADS of time! Especially when i'm doing important stuff- like studying, praying, reading the Bible, ministry, taking care of others in need. I know that my feeling always plays tricks on me. Making me focused on it rather than the particular thing that i should be doing. 

So this is my resolution- to stop listening to that feeling. How? by stop being so selfcentered. 

I've noticed- the moment i started to look at my self and focus on myself and these feelings, the more i am de-motivated to do things that are more worthy to be focused upon. The stronger and more demanding the feelings get - and the weaker i am to resist it. But the moment i stop thinking about MYSELF - then whether i have those feelings or not - it doesn't really matter because i know that i have better things to do than pitiying myself.

I guess what Mark Driscoll says is true that we "take ourself too seriously and we take God too lightly"